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Thursday, March 26, 2009
just caught up with naruto... 30 episodes at one go is realli.... SHIOK... haha...Anywaes... have been waking up around 6.30am in the morning for the past few days... a timing which is really normal for most people.. but... just realli refreshing for me... Feels pretty good though... to know that you have many hours ahead to leisurely spend...
right now... i'm happy... i'm blessed... never have i ever felt so contented... despites small little setbacks occuring now and then... =)
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Monday, March 23, 2009
today... was a really new and refreshing experience... to take up the 'kids' challenge...they say there's always an angel and a devil behind every child... i say... what crap... every bloody human being has an angel and devil side too... lol... thats a side track... anywaes...
somehow... the whole day just sum up my feelings and thoughts abt teaching... i dun hate kids... never tot i cld like them... but well... at least i dun lie to myself by trying to go into the teaching sector, believing i can make a big difference to children and somehow become angelic in one way or another...
but what i believe in is... why try to control something when it is not meant to be a certain way? for instance... if kids are playful by nature... why try to keep them well-behaved and simply punish them without questioning their actions? personally, i hate (and i do seriously mean it) some certain adults who always think they have to be the ultimate decision makers... and do not question others' opinions... or even bother to explain the reason behind their decisions... that's the impression i generally have with most teachers...
when teachers say quiet... U ALL MUST LISTEN... den pupils HAVE to listen... but why??? coz they are the teachers? i have never been convinced why we MUST listen and obey without questions... be it rebellious or whatever u call it... but i believe every single human soul deserves a right to have a stand... even kids... heh..
ok... of course.. kids do have their devillish times... and so.. it is naturally right to tell them off when they do something stupid... even for those who are just seriously rebellious and refuse to listen. e.g. if a kid take a scissors and refuses to believe that he will hurt himself even when adults warned them seriously, let them experience it and cut themselves la! i do believe humans are sadistic in nature and they learn through experience... anywae for those realli rebellious ones... its not as if u hit them with a cane or scream at them to terrorize them... they will not do the stupid act of doing something warned dangerous... so.. why bother?
so all in all... i realli don't like to work with tchers and never am i gonna be one in any time to come... heh...
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Friday, March 20, 2009
People always say there are two ways to look at things... 1) be Positive or 2) be Negative.Well, so true to many extents... Many times, we face situations such as not wanting to wake up in the morning for work... not wanting to study for exams.... and not wanting to torture ourselves furthermore when we know it is something we simply do not want to pursue...
New school term is coming and I'm supposed to start my dissertation soon... but... i just simply havent, bcoz:
excuse no. 1 - no time
excuse no. 2 - work is busy
excuse no. 3 - tutor never email me
well... but all in all... i somehow am just not interested... and so how does this issue link to my discussion over being positive or negative? Well... after working for some time... i realise... there are truly situtations we don't want to face... and paths we definitely don't want to take... but... we have to... thats life...
and so... we have two ways to look at it... 1) be positive... well just go through it.. if we make it... yay! we managed to overcome ourselves once again. 2) be negative... escape from it and ignore whatever is supposed to happen...
And so... why the hell am i still not doing anything? lol... i've thought about it for so long... looked backed on the times i've been through for the past 4yrs... To be honest.. it was really the worst times of my life... I've never felt so much depression... so much confusion and so much heartbreak in my whole life...
part of me tells me it is part of growing up... another part of me... tells me... i've just chosen the wrong paths... and so i should walk out of it and move on... I was once so determined i would never go back to complete my masters year... and seriously i dont know why the hell i am here right now...
i enjoy my work somehow... it's flexible... pay's reasonable and sometimes... it's really fulfilling when i hit my targets... but things also do happen... i know i shouldnt stay here... that to be realistic... i cant hold on to this job forever...
And so... if i realli do give up... where do i go? oh yeahh... which is why... the final master year is important... it gives u glory... it makes ppl around you proud... it helps you build a better career path... and so logically... everyone tells u that since u have made it so far... you should complete it...
but i think what really matters is the support around you... to give u a push up when you feel u cant continue... your peer with whom u can feel that u are not alone...
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