DuN CrY cOz It'Z OvEr SMiLe cOz iT HaPPeNeD...

Tuesday, January 30, 2007

omg my beloved frens out there... i realli love this song... its realli sweet.. i dedicate to all of u k? know i said these alota times... but i realli love all of u esp jo... always there for me during my realli down periods... and despite my pmsing at times... u guys nv gave up on me =[ i am realli realli so glad i have all of u... MUACKSSSSSSSSSSSS i love u all =D

陪你等天亮

眼看星星落下
窗外一点一点出现阳光
摸摸我的头你说我很棒

我们都是这样
一面带着伤痕一面飞翔
难过的时候有我在身旁

我陪你等天亮
拥抱着一起分享
能放心的哭一场
是再微笑的力量

只有你明白我的疯狂
不管故事有多长
世界对我太善良
这一路上有你我变得坚强

你知道我多傻
在你面前从来不用逞强
听我说说话让我靠一下
我们都是这样
想要幸福却都跌跌撞撞
可是不要怕有我在身旁

比赛看谁早一点学会
就算逆风也能好好带着祝福不再流泪
勇敢的飞
然后分享那种喜悦

有你在身旁嗯……

there are some ppl who make u sad in this world... but there are also some who feel down when u are sad... there are some ppl who u get disappointed with at times... but there will also be those that stay by u despite all the ups and downs... what more can i ask for in my life? at this pt of time... i realli just want to be myself... and continue sharing happiness with ppl impt to me in my life...

haha... got sound inspirational anot... lol... =D

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Monday, January 29, 2007

omg i am so super addicted to this dancing game that is realli similar to the music punching game in arcades!!! lol... feels realli shiok when u go along with the beat!

anywaes... in case anyone thinks yanzz was pmsing againz... yanzz was just damn pissed coz some ppl entered her room and touched her things... shifted her stuff... threw away her stuff... and lost her earrings.. broke her things... blah blah blah... and its not the first time yanzz said she freakin HATE ppl touching her stuff without permission... if u touch my things and put them back to their original place.. its fine... but stop shifting them into ways u please... and it totally just mess up my life which super bloody hell irritate me... zzz...

i freakin haf no motivation to do anything now... tiredz... its weird how some ppl change... when they lose things impt to them... then they start to look for u... and be nice to you... and for others... when they realise u are not impt to them... their attitudes change too... but nahz... i wun say its sumting bad.. coz if its me... perhaps i wld do the same too... coz humans are usualli selfish... how many of us dun mind giving up our happiness so as to make others happy?

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Thursday, January 25, 2007

home... what is it?

a place where u can rest and feel belonged... a place where u feel at peace with urself... a place where u know no matter what mistakes u commit... u will be accepted...

perfectionism... why do we seek it?

a habit some cant seem to get rid of... a flaw to some... yet a challenge to others... why do some ppl never seem to be satisfied with things arnd them... they want others to change for their sake... they cant accept others for not being perfect... and what do we gain from seeking perfection... to gain acceptance by others? y do we need to be a better us to be accepted?

acceptance... why is it so hard for ppl to accept?

accept their past... their flaws... their good and bad... accept them coz we know they are the way they are... accept them coz we want to stay by them and be part of their lives... accept them coz we love them without any conditions...

but humans are often blinded by the society... by the social standards that have been set for them... and why do so many of us blind ourselves so as to fit into these standards... a home should be a place where u can rest... and not full of tension and suspicions in every single move u make... that is not a home... it is just a place where u return to coz there is no other place u can go to...

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Monday, January 22, 2007

somtimes i wonder y some ppl are so fascinated with rings.. lol...

they say when u find the perfect owner... the ring will secure his/her finger and cant be taken out easily... mebe i sound veri superstitious... but i do believe... if the ring doesnt fit u... it was never meant to be.. lol...

mebe thats y yanzz never worn rings, necklaces or accessories besides earrings... neither does she like to wear watches... lol... y force urself to put on something that never was meant to fit? sumtimes clothes can be worn a lil loose... shoes can be worn slightly bigger... but if a ring is too large for ur finger... it will slip out of it easily.... hehz.. yanzz doesnt make sense...

anywaes.. lol... for the first time in 3 years!!! yanzz went to see a doctor!!! lol... not coz she got sore throat... or feel pukish... but coz....
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she got allergic to the damn food she ate yesterday!!??
seriously... i dun even know what was it that caused it.. coz i hafent ate anythin unusual =/ but the closest answer i got to it was the food i ate at bento!!! omg... seriously ppl out there!! i realli got veri bad experience there twice... first... the food tasted like dirty table cloth... and this time round... i tot the spagetti tasted a lil like medicine and the next thing i know was... i felt itchy all over my body... >.< ok pls ppl... dun even visit there... realli scary... and i was so damn grossed out when i saw all the lumps and spots on my face... wanna faint... and the itchiness was horrible!!! so i decided to have an injection that the doctor suggested... and now i am typin with my left hand feeling so numb and weak after the injection... lol... gosh... ok... now i feel drowsy from the medicine in my body... boo... gona slp... =]

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Saturday, January 20, 2007

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aiya!! caught!!! boo!

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3 a.m. crew~~!

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3 a.m. crew~~!

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friday crew?

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cyn... yanzz... xiaohua and huaiyu~~~ =] =] =]

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jumping shot!!! we fly!!!

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we are from princep branch!!! muahaha

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the galss of the nite!!!

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abit blur... mind cafe's staff event at aloha loyang!!! =D

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woot!! brownie yanzz baked for mind cafe!

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Friday, January 12, 2007

yanzz realises she is veri spoilt...

if there is no one to buy dinner or lunch...
she wont eat...

if there is no one to clean or nag at her...
she wont clear her table...

if there is no one to go out with her...
she will rot in bed...

if there is no one to scold her...
she wont go for lessons...

if there is no one to bring her to the doctor...
she will rather puke to death den walk to the clinic in the rain...

=/ so for the first time in her life....
yanzz decides to go see the doctor on her own before she realli puke to her death... =D

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Wednesday, January 10, 2007

heartpain when u see ppl arnd u suffering....
heartpain when u see ppl and u almost fail to recognise them...
heartpain when i saw my grandpa lyin in the high dependency ward...
its not that i was realli close to him or regret that i dint treasure him enough...
but when u see someone whom u used to know suffering in such a way...
heartache...
and i immediately felt tears welled up in my eyes...
i dunno what to say at all...
i just wished somehow i could ease his pain...
he couldnt even speak or recognise us... and when i saw him struggling...
heartache againz...
and i couldnt even bear watchin him lyin helplessly in the bed...
so i went out... and cried againz...
it is scary isnt it... when u know one day the same thing could happen to u urself too...
when u know one day... it may be someone even more closer to u suffering that way...
but the one thing that made me glad was... at least he called out my name in his mumbles...
he just spoke to me well and concerned less than a week ago...
they say life is fragile... and u realli wun understand until u experience something so close to u...

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Tuesday, January 09, 2007

*censored* yanzz was pmsing... again... =D

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see how big ikea is!!!

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hahaha i realli love this pose...

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yanzz and the snake!!

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yes? lookin at me?

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lol jo look so nice lei...

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another tap? eh...

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swooshhh wash hand (no water)

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i am reading la...

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yanzz and the frog

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chiobu with her food

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woopzz forgot to post the ikea pics... =]

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miss jojo!!!

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yanzz and nic at tanah merah... lol

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erm... still walkin to tanah merah...

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weee badminton~~

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bedok~~ hey the background scene looks nice lei...

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Sunday, January 07, 2007

omg.. waiting for my hair to dry... and realli bloody tired... but cant slp with them wet... =/

anywaes... today seemed to be a realli realli long day... sighz... was aledi super tired from teachin the 3 classes... and at night.. in the cafe, it was soo noisy i had to practically shout... and it felt horrible... work seemed so tiring... boring... and meaningless for a moment.. =[

rushed from places to places... chinese garden to teck whye... teck whye to dhoby gaut... dint even had proper time to eat... and to my dismay... the cafe peeps bought food without me!!! =[ =[ =[ so i got realli so tired and hungry for some time... b4 i finally ordered some inhouse chicken platter and gobbled my food... and totally felt like puking... =[ the food wasnt bad.. i just felt horrible... sighz.. work today was bad... boring... empty... and realli realli tiring... sobz... no one to share lame jokes with... =[ no one to share cab home with =[ no one to chat with... =[ *cries*

tml my other 2 students are coming back and its back to the class of five again... booo!!! gonna get a reali noisy class... =[ and i have to repeat so many things for the rest of the students to catch up!!! boohooohooo... =[

btw... i realli love the cake we baked yesterday... damn delicious la!!! fresh from the fridge!!! muahahaha... *juz kapo-ed n ate a small chunk of it from my student's cake =p*

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Saturday, January 06, 2007

Hmmm... how shld i start...

today is a cake baking session!!! lol....

andyzz came over and we bought some ingredients before starting on our mission of chocolate cake baking... ok... the easy-to-make cake recipe online... aint that easy afterall... booo... coz the cake refused to rise!!! turned out a lil hard... and tasted like brownie instead... =[ but the frosting was realli cool!!! haha i love the frosting.. so chocolatey... fudgey!~!! yummy!!! =D and my icing wasnt realli pretty... but dun complain k! =/

anywaes... at night... some ppl came sooo late... so we continued baking at arnd 10 pm and had less than 2 hrs to finish the next cake... so rush rush rush... and finally!!! i came to a veri good conclusion... ready-cake mix are so much more convenient and delicious... lol... and it was nice and fluffy!!! dun have pictures yet =[ but i shall bring my students' pictures of their mini bdae celebration on sunday! hehz... realli enjoyed the cake baking day.. lol despite the mess i made...

tml's another marathon... workin from 9 a.m. til 3 a.m. and sunday 9 a.m. til 2 p.m. and badminton at 6? hey ppl who read this... better dun dua me... 545 p.m. at bedok mrt hor... pls bring shuttles if u have... dun bring china brand de k? =D

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Thursday, January 04, 2007

today.... went to watch pains of confession! its realli kinda cool... thriller... mebe coz i seldom watch this kinda movie but i was half covering my eyes when the murderer was using the weapons to kill... DISGUSTING... lol... and jin cheng wu is damn shuai la... haha... and the ending was kinda sad =[ but all in all i kinda enjoyed it la... minus the fact that someone was late =/

den went to eat bak chor mee with ernnie and youjie... woot... was damn full la... and it was raining so badly... lol... me damn sleepy so went right home after dinner... and slpt like a log on the train...

and when i reached boonlay.. WTH!!! it was raining DAMMMNNN heavily... and i had no umbrella.. so poor me.. RAN across the road... and my slippers fell... haha... so i ran back to get it in the middle of the road... and gave up wearing slippers and so i ran barefooted... LOL... den at the end... a nice soul actualli lend me his umbrella for a while la... not alota help but at least wasnt THAT drenched but still drenched... lol... but it was kinda cool... to run in the rain hahaha... =D

and so that ended my day and i am in my nice nice bedroom.. gona slp soon... yawnzzz... =] sleepy sleepy!!!

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Monday, January 01, 2007

i realise... that being helpless can realli be heartwrenching... when u see ppl arnd u suffering and u cant do anything abt it... or dunno what u can do abt it...
it's always easy to say u shld treasure ppl arnd u... but how many of us realli do... and how many of us can realli give up our prides to do things that may seem foolish to others so as to make them happy... can we still give up our prides for ppl who have hurt us realli deeply and forgive them bcoz we shld treasure them? it's realli hard...

new year hasnt been great but it hasnt been realli bad either... dint spend it with anyone special... juz a few old frens... jo and nic and kaiz and his relatives... ermm.. lol kinda weird la... but heck... no fireworks at least i wanna have my mahjong... =p yepz... missed my fireworks that i was realli looking forward to... =[ but played a lil of mahjong that i had been realli waiting for too...

anywaes... here are pics of our wonderful ichee outing! =D

29th Dec 2006...

sze hsien's place with her wonderful cooking... =]

dear ichees~~~