DuN CrY cOz It'Z OvEr SMiLe cOz iT HaPPeNeD...

Monday, October 31, 2005

一件黑色毛衣
兩個人的回憶
雨過之後更難忘記
忘記我還愛你
你不用在意
流淚也只想剛好合意
我早已經待在谷底

我知道不能再留住你
也知道不能沒有孤寂
感激你讓我擁有缺點的美麗

看著那白色的蜻蜓
在空中忘了前進
還能不能重新編織
腦海中起毛球的記憶
再說我愛你可能雨也不會停
黑色毛衣藏在那裡
就讓回憶永遠停在那裡...

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Friday, October 28, 2005

yo! lol does this song sound familiar?? from "prince turn into frog" what a title... lol... damn... recently i'm addicted to this show... kinda cheer me up... quite funny at times... yet sweet... never reali noticed the lyrics... but its kinda interesting...

talking abt searching for the love they lost... realli suit the show... lol though i find the losing memory part abit stupid but well... in shows... it is always these stupid things that make the story goes and more romantic... haha... well... not bad la... at least it is not those soppy shows... where u cry and die... kinda cheery... and its not complicated... good for slow thinkers like me... haha... and i like that actress... sad i dint get to watch her another show that i wanted to watch for sooo long =[

记忆像游乐园般精彩
我们像对恋人相爱
幸福是应该不会是当然
只怪我们都太贪玩

思念像云朵般柔软
而你静静躺在我胸怀
我像是任性走失的小孩
紧紧抱著孤单

我们都曾经明白也都曾经遗憾
错过了爱就难以重来
不要害怕去坦白怕容易被你宠坏
忘了该与不该

到哪里找回真爱找回所有遗憾
爱的真相就能够解开
多给我一些片段拼凑未知的意外
失去记忆最初的爱

我是被你遗忘的精彩
你却带著记忆离开
心跳是我们唯一的呼唤
提醒我们曾经相爱

你的笑像阳光般灿烂
小心翼翼藏在我口袋
在我脆弱时给了我温暖谁也无法取代

但我们都曾明白也都曾经遗憾
一旦错过就难以重来
不要害怕去坦白怕又容易被宠坏
忘了该与不该

到哪里找回真爱找回所有遗憾
爱的真相就能够解开
都给我一些片段
拼凑未知的意外失去记忆最初的爱

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Thursday, October 27, 2005

lol... taken from jojo~~

Seven things that scare me:
1) holes... or rather those tiny black black holes all clustered together
2) many many ants...
3) loneliness
4) losing the ability to talk... ok not that bad... still can type though...
5) losing things/ppl i realli love
6) failure in everything i do
7) blood

Seven things i like the most
1) eating
2) sleeping
3) crapping
4) music
5) animes/vcds
6) rotting
7) cappuccino

Seven important things in my room
1) my computer!!!!
2) bed
3) my water bottle
4) cupboard with my lovely clothes of course
5) my chair/chairs
6) my earrings
7) all my comic books...

Seven random facts about me
1) i think i am balding =[
2) love crapping
3) i am ALWAYS broke
4) i love green tea/apple tea
5) i have lovely frens and most imptly my lovely darlin out there...
6) i'm weird
7) i love to sing

Seven things to do before i die
1) eat all the nice food in pg with my darl (wa!! jo u want to eat EVERYTHING??? omg...)
2) visit paris/barcelona/venice
3) i want 2 kids... haha!!
4) eat all the nice chocolates by meiji...
5) finish watchin naruto... damn.. when is it going to end?
6) drive a car, with liscence
7) get married... hahahaha.. what who doesnt want to... b4 u die?? dun lie ok

Seven things i can do
1) crap
2) roll my tongue
3) sing a lil but no dance
4) sketching
5) pissing ppl off/irritating them on purpose
6) be nice
7) dye hair for ppl... haha

Seven things i cant do
1) keep quiet
2) be patient
3) be fake or rather fake my feelings
4) multitask
5) live without my computer
6) and of course live without my frens and my darlin
7) give directions

seven things i say the most
1) damnnnnn
2) what the hell
3) shut up
4) WTF
5) ....
6) duhhhh
7) DANGGGG

Seven celeb crushes
1) vic chou! hahaha that was long ago
2) louis koo
3) brad pitt
4) josh harnett
5) takeshi kaneshiro
6) edison!
7) daniel wu

Seven ppl who will have to do this
1) jo did ler lei... Hmmm
2) mao
3) juinz
4) xianzz
5) mixed breed
6) well i wld love to see capp do this... haha but i dun think he will.. dun scold me)
7) anyone who reads my blog...

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Wednesday, October 26, 2005

i damn hate it when ppl claim their 'rights' to things they haf no rights to... u dint work for it... why the hell shld u own it... i worked for the things i have... and u just sat there and happily use it... do u think u realli deserve it? 3 years ago... i dint even get to have everything that u have now... and u dare to complain... u use my things... i dun mind lending them to u... but u spoil them... now u even want my things to lend to ur frens... what do u think i am?

i am no saint... i am not generous... i dun lend things to strangers... u take my things without my permission and u use up the things i buy... damn it... the things i buy with my own money that i earn myself... why must i be so calculative u ask? den ask urselves... everytime u buy sumting... u ask for money from me... even 20 cents... u want to calculate... and so... to me... this damn family is all built up upon money... so damn it... keep quiet and dun touch my things... u dint work for them at all den stop taking my things for granted... i saved up... worked... for all these money... so if u dint work for them at all... juz buzz off...

damn pissed...

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Sunday, October 23, 2005

waha!!! retail therapy is cool... WAHAHAHA... jo is gona sue me for makin her jealous i bought so many things but she shopped like mad to onli find a pair of nice nike shoes... but hey! jo that pair is realli nice ok... realli worth the buy... 80+ bucks for nike shoes is reali not ex lor... plus it can last and it is comfortable... i still like that purple white pair thought... damn... any guy buys me that... i'll considering marryin him... AHAHA... (capp wun see this rite? =p)
anywae... so what did i buy? ahaha... ermm... one jacket from samuel and kevins... OMG I LOVE THAT JACKET!!! and one shirt that jo says is ugly =[ for my darling... but i like what =[ and one pair of nike ankle socks... and 2 books - queitus by vivian schilling (looks real nice); True believer by Nicholas sparks (author of the notebook... a damn nice story and movie)
and then another pair of slippers which is damn cheap... and one skirt from pepper plus which is on offer too!!! WAHHAHAHAH oh yar i forgot to mention... samuel and kevin actualli has 10% discount for students!!! so cool rite!!
and den had nice lunch at sakae and dinner at crystal jade... so u can realli imagine how much i spent in one day... i'm not rich... its called retail therapy... here are some wonderful pics...

lovely sandals... 10 bucks nia~!!!
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nice nice books~~
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not nice meh? supposed to have the rusty and faded out look but special what =[
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my jacket!!! no clothes hanger... so i put it over the shirt... hehe
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yes u may be right abt plentiful of things.. mebe all i cared abt was myself... and all i wanna say here is... are u realli 100% sure out of the whole day that day... there was no single chance u cld pick out some time to hand it in? yes asking ppl for help may be necessary... but think abt the way u asked me that day... u said 'i'll ask junxian to hand it in for me' u dint even mention us? wow... i was like for u? den how abt me? if so... doesnt matter... i might as well hand it in for us...
one more pt... everyone arnd in the whole cohort has aledi kinda think both u and i are slackers... i juz dun want them to think u and i are going off to 'shop' or sumting again... together at the same time... think abt what they will think when they know BOTH u and i cant hand it in? i'm not sure... mebe they are nice ppl... but i seldom find realli nice ppl unless they understand us well enuff like huijuan...

and den...when i tried to understand y u cant go... u dint even bother explaining... and u said "if u dun want to do it den say..." wow? i was like? i dun want to do it? hello? in the first place... i'm not even sure i had the time to hand it in myself... i've made it veri clear i haf lessons til 3... unless u happily forgotten all abt it...

as regards to ur giving up... yes mebe u are hafin a hard time... and everyone is in fact... but what i see is u no longer have the passion or u may say u dun even haf it in the first place... think abt ur project last year... the memorial.. it was a nice piece of work.. and everyone can tell that u realli realli put in alota effort... that is called hardwork... i'm not sure abt what u are doing now... but i juz dun see the same spirit in it...

yes i was spiteful.. i admit... that i shldnt have done... but well what is done is done... these are all i have to say...

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Saturday, October 22, 2005

man... now i cant even say how i feel? i haf to restrict everything and be fake and tell ppl yes u are right... i'm so sorry i haf been wrong all along... i'm very sure u wun regret what u are doing... i'm very sure u will eventually find a way out? that sounds convincing... ok before getting pissed off again and close this window... just read til the end to what i have to say.. coz i promise this will be the last... i realli wun even bother anymore...

its weird how ppl always say others are judging them when ppl are juz trying to advice them sumting that they themselves dun see... i may say it in a stupidly horrible way... but everyone knows i dunno how to make myself sound nice... and the gyst is... how can one ever be so damn sure abt what they want in life... nobody can realli understand urself that well... if so... we will never make mistakes... i juz hate the way ppl give up on themselves before reali putting in their best... coz i can just see that they can do so much better if they put their heart to it... but they choose to put it somewhere else... not saying its wrong... i juz meant to put it somewhere else temporary... ah yar yar i am judging again? i dun believe if others can do it... u cant... its juz how much u want it... i hate it when i see ppl giving up halfway... yar.. u may still physically be here... trying to go on... but well... ur heart is no longer there.. den whats the pt... might as well juz let it go... being somewhere halfheartedly... might as well just give it up and stop torturing urself if u know it will come to no good end...

and stop trying to be nice if u think u are being nice... i dun need ppl to act nice to me... if u are angry or hate me... damn it just admit it... i accept facts... and i hate ppl hiding abt how they realli feel... there is no pt saying things u want to say... or having so much u want to say... and post it and then delete it... that is not nice... that is just trying to deceive me... or hiding how u feel abt me...

i never said i was nice... i am juz honest and trying to tell ppl how i feel... if i dun agree with them.. either i state my stand or i ignore it? anywae truths usualli hurt... yar i know i always want things in my way... coz thats how i survived til today... i am not born with many things in life... and all i learn is i got to fight for them... i onli expect ppl who realli care for me to understand y i need things done that way... if they dun... den it juz shows they dun realli care... yes it may all have been started from a small matter.... but to me it is not small at all... coz it juz finally shows how we both feel abt each other... if i dun care abt a person... i wun even bother telling u these... and just leave u to ur death... and yes... call me stupid and tell me u dun need my help... whatever... dun wry... this is the last post abt all these shit... from now on... i wun even bother anymore... u can rest assured...

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its weird how ppl give in so easily... lol... when we make decisions... we shld always think of the consquences... whats the pt of regretting after u chose it? i realli dun understand these ppl...
determination and hard work always comes into the story... if u want something... work for it... even if it is not sumting i want... but since given the chance... do it ur best instead of diverting ur attention... nobody can realli do the things they want in life... and it has been proven... its not abt talent... its abt how much efforts u want to put in it... if this is not the life u want... den get out of it... not get stuck in it...

it is quite sad when i see some ppl in general... putting in so much effort... yet y dun they do well? instead of convincing urself u dun haf talent... y dun u look arnd and see what others are doing... everyone is workin equally hard but y do they do better? coz they enjoy what they are doing... coz they make the best out of it... coz they share opinions with each other... if u are stuck on doing it alone... being so intent on doing it your own way.. there is little way u can improve...

yes we haf other issues in our mind too... i realli dunno... but aint ppl important in our lives supposed to inspire us... make us move on... and not just stick to what we have and stay there? lol... but haf we ever thought for others? its not abt the hopes that ppl pin on u... its abt what u shld do to make the best out of the situation... since we are already here... why cant we relax and let nature takes its course... the other goals we have... we still haf loads of time to achieve it... whats the hurry? if u haf the mentality that u cant do it... yar i agree... u wun make it...

everyone has setbacks... but its not abt the product... aint it abt the process? do u realli haf no faith in urself at all... or are u just trying to convince urself to give it up earlier... or worse... are u just trying to give urself excuses to give up...

*shrugz* its not my problem anymore... just find it weird how some ppl tend to convince themselves that they are weak... giving themselves excuses to take the easy way out... i mean in general... of course taking easy ways out is good if u can do it well... lol... but hell... if u cant do it well... den work hard for it man... i cant stand ppl who whines and then do nothing abt it... what makes me think that they are not doing anything abt it? its the attitude... like maria says... u cant change the world... ur life.. there are so many things that binds us to where we are... but u can change ur attitude... of course i know i complain alot too... but at least i try to do sumting abt them...

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Thursday, October 20, 2005

realli like this song too... rather soothing to listen to at night... lol... it makes me kinda wanna dance and move with the music lol... but i cant find the title or singer or this song... anyone knows ma? tell me k?

interim crit's over... my whole studio realli spent alota effort individually... and during crit... we were kinda slammed... but it was ok i guess... crits are for improvements... but can reali see some of them getting realli stressed coz they cant work out alota things... for me... hmmm i guess i juz wanna try my best...
had a rather sucky dinner.... ew... haiz... i realli wish the next mth can fly pass realli fast... =[

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Tuesday, October 18, 2005

Hmm... another song by janice wei...one of my fave... lol dunno y after hearin her voice.. i kinda get addicted to this kinda jazzy songs... change in taste of songs? lol... i juz kinda like the rhythmetic feel... and feels a lil sexy??... lol... so not me.. oh god... what has happened to yanz??? >.<
actualli i feel that songs realli express ur feelings... and a good song realli engage u in their tunes... lol... i guess i juz realli love music... there is no good music or bad music... juz music that engages u... that is music =]

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Monday, October 17, 2005

nice lyrics... meaningful lei...

The Rose

Some say love, it is a river,
that drowns the tender reed
Some say love, it is a razor,
that leaves your soul to bleed
Some say love, it is a hunger,
an endless aching need
I say love, it is a flower,
and you, its only seed...

Its the heart afraid of breaking,
that never learns to dance
Its the dream afraid of waking,
that never takes the chance
Its the one who won't be taken,
the one who can't seem to give
And the soul afraid of dying,
that never learns to live...

When the night has been too lonely
and the road has been too long
And you think that love is only
for the lucky and the strong
Just remember that in the winter,
far beneath the bitter snow
Lies the seed, that with the sun's love
in the spring becomes the rose...

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Saturday, October 15, 2005

haiz... kena scolded by mao >.<

yesterday... finally went out for a movie... 40 year old virgin... lol... erm dunno y mao wanna watch haha... she says it has good reviews... but well the show was rather... ermm... sexual? and the ending yes was reall retarded lol... totally no link lei... when the guy started singing a weird song and everyone started dancing????

actualli i feel that the show kinda project a wrong image of relationships... they make it seem like alota ppl in this world get into a relationship coz of sex... lol... though in the end they did make it a pt to say that it is not... but well.. 3/4 of the show it was tokin abt it... so.... dunno if it is reali a good movie though... er.... educational la... haha esp the cursing and swearing part... wah lao... all sorts of words they use man.... though i dint realli catch much of it... veri vulgar lei... haha

well... hafent been updating my blog much.. coz basically i juz have no mood to do anything... haiz... life is realli hard without him... and recently heard another fren broke up with his gf coz of long distance... actualli i feel veri blessed aledi... since at least i get to see him once every 3 mths? well... thats the longest we've been apart at least... lol... and when i heard my fren onli get to see his gf once a year? haiz... and it is obvious he still cares for her... but somehow... mebe the feelings juz got lost in the distance? distance is realli one big enemy... tsk... and somehow there is this new gurl in his life... that started to change his relationship with his ex... and mebe coz of the feeling of being lost... the emptiness he feel when she is miles and miles away... resulting in his change of heart? tsk... aint it complicating... lol... y do humans feel insecure... y do humans always seek for sumting better? like this mayday song... lol... veri sad... and veri pain... according to normy... haha this phrase: "才发现笑着哭最痛" how can u laff when u cry... tsk... thats realli sad... and i particularly love the first few lines... toking abt y human are never satisfied and how the sky laughs at us... tsk... or mebe these ppl juz hafent found the thing that realli satisfies them... things can be simple rite? its juz how much u want them to be simple... its either u want it... or u dun...

怎么去拥有一道彩虹
怎么去拥抱一夏天的风
天上的星星笑地上的人
总是不能懂不能知道足够

如果我爱上你的笑容
要怎么收藏要怎么拥有
如果你快乐不是为我
会不会放手其实才是拥有

当一阵风吹来风筝飞上天空
为了你而祈祷而祝福而感动
终于你身影消失在人海尽头
才发现笑着哭最痛

那天你和我那个山丘
那样的唱着那一年的歌
那样的回忆那么足够足够
我天天都品尝着寂寞
才发现笑着哭最痛wo…

如果你快乐再不是为我
知足的快乐叫我忍受心痛...

lol... ok enuff of tokin... go dl the song! or u can ask me to send to u... haha mebe i'll put it up on the blog in a while but this song playin now is still rather new... and i want to promote this new singer!! janice wei!! the current song playin.. she has a realli nice voice =]

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Friday, October 14, 2005

My eyes don't lie...

The rose is green and grass is red
Will you remember what i said
Baby don't forget before you regret
Stuck in my mind
A needle through my head

The light you shine into the night
You take away my fright
And for everytime I see you i try
What I try to say is stay with me tonight

For what i really feel inside
My eyes won't let me hide
Everytime I see you they start to cry
Cause this time my love it could mean goodbye
Don't say goodnight...

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Tuesday, October 11, 2005

so.... the cold war is actualli started coz of this stupid tension between USA and USSR... coz capitalists feel that they are god who gives freedom to everyone and should have the responsibility to curb the communists coz they take away ppl's freedom by force... even if it had to be done at the expense of uncountable deaths and sufferings.... waha!
and so DNA is actualli a double stranded thingy and it has this mRNA thingy which translates the signals of the DNA to proteins in our bodies and teaches them how to function... and we can actualli cut up ppl's genes to put them in plants... or vice versa... WAHA!

good so i do know sumting abt these stuff!!! but y must i write a 10 page essay for geopolitics and a 2 page essay for genes and society... and what has these gota do with architecture??? arghh... and i got my stupid 2722 where my group is designing a toilet that ppl can approach from the four directions??? er... i shall not comment too much... and my studio design... on water... how on earth am i supposed to have a beautiful concept that links my form to water and yet cant use glass.. coz it traps heatt.... cant use artificial devices for ventilation.. must be natural... and there arent much land on the stupid hill that i HAVE to build it on... and it must be sustainable??? ARRRGgghhh....

HELP I AM SUFFOCATING....

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When you smile my life
Becomes a ray of light
Sing me a lullaby to sleep at midnight
I'll be hypnotized when i look into your eyes
Turn off the room light
Let's spend the night...

Take me to far a way
Away to your secret place
Take my tears my fears
Take all my pain for which
I'll repay some day with a kiss and say
Can't believe that I'm in love... in love again...

When the stars don't shine
And when the birds don't fly
And when the flowers cry
And when the rain runs dry
When the violet's red
And the rose turn blue
Baby I'm still in love with you...

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Friday, October 07, 2005

today'z an irritating day... practically everything is pissing me off...
firstly, my mum dint go to work today... there goes my peace... and i had to cancel my original plan to cook curry with sze hsien for lunch... she went home for lunch instead... den... the damn tuition centre called me and asked me to change my tuition date to weekdays... when i am more busy... esp next few weeks are goin to be like shyt... den... my 2722 grp last minute say wanna meet up... DAMN IT... waste my transport money to go there for an hour or two when i dun haf anything to contribute to the grp... den... when i was abt to make phonecalls... my mum came in with her damn vacuum cleaner... ARGH.... i hate it when she tries to clean the house every single day.... WT... and i hate it when ppl disrupt whatever i am doing.... there are so many electrical sockets but she just gota choose my room...
AND WORSE OUT OF ALL... i cant eat my pocky coz i ate 3 boxes yesterday and one box this morning... and i am trying damn hard to save money... and i want to eat my tako paochi too... and chicken burgers... and drink my apple tea.... ARGHHH.... its damn irritating....

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Hmmm.... juz wondering.... am i an interesting person? coz i am slightly weird....? is that y ppl befren me? what are the other factors ppl actualli like me or befren me... and what are the things that are irritating abt me....

how wld u feel if u realised ppl like u juz coz u are interesting... what if i am not.... what if one day i lose my voice or sight... and i cant talk anymore to entertain ppl... or what if one day... i become someone realli boring... a gurl who doesnt talk much... doesnt crap anymore... or someone who realli has nothing interesting at all abt her... will ppl still stay by me? so what is it that ppl like and dun like abt me? lol if u are reading this... feel free to tag... i'm rather curious...

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Monday, October 03, 2005

Nice Song...

Mmmmm no ohhh ah yeah
Just one day If I could hold you in my arms
Close to my heart where you belong
Love of my life you really are
Still be showering you with kisses like snow in winter
Remember back in the day we were like best of friends
But we were falling in love we never could pretend
Night after night we used to talk about me and you
The things we'd do together forever?

Do you believe in love?
And the promise that it brings
That you'll never grow apart
Well that's what she said to me
Why did you have to go?
We were inseparable
You and me will always be together for eternity

Just one day If I could touch your face again
Words can't describe how I'm feeling
If I could turn back the hands of time
I'd still be holding on wishes that you left behind
Remember moments when there was nothing better than
A stroll in the park walking hand in hand
I'll never forget the times we talked about me and you
The things we do together forever

Do you believe in love?
And the promise that it brings
That you'll never grow apart
Well that's what she said to me
Why did you have to go?
We were inseparable
You and me will always be together for eternity

The words you said to me before you slipped away
Are still with me girl to this very day yeah
In everything I do to everything I say
You'll always be the sunshine in my life

And yes I believe in love Do you believe in love?
And the promise that it brings
That you'll never grow apart
Well that's what she said to me
Why did you have to go?
We were inseparable
You and me will always be together for eternity [repeat]

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has the template of blogger changed again? or isit my com... this new format definitely feels weird...
well anywae... lol... today's a rather nice day =] hehe... though i dint go for lecture... AGAIN... coz i had to do my design... and i need to go to the studio to do it while everyone is in lecture so i can borrow my fren's metal ruler... DANG... still rather pissed at whichever idiot who stole my metal ruler and set squares... gr... but i got to tok on da phone with "soho cute guy" haha... =p and Hmm... brightened up my day... lol... =]
anywae after studio... which ended late at 6 pm... i was late for my survey!!! arr... so i had to take a cab... and as usual at this time... singapore has super duper nice jams at all the expressways... arghh.. and i reached the survey place onli at 645... and lol... surprise!!! they told me they have enough ppl already... but they will still give me my incentive which is 50 bucks cash~!! weee~~ lol... for doing nothing and just taking a cab to bugis... minusing my cost... i actualli earned 40 bucks... LOL... ok... today's a cash roll in day... =] hope my soho cute guy also has money rolling in for u... ^^V muakz muakz muakz... i'm in a good mood today... weee~~~
and not that sleepy... YET..

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haiz.... i feel so shitty... everyday its... sleepy and sleepy and never ending work and sleepy and sleepy.... ARrrrrrRR... i feel so sleepy....

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