~Me~
Known As YaNzZ Has Been Breathing For 22 Yrs
DoN'T cRy cOz It'Z oVeR SmiLe CoZ iT HaPpENeD...
Known As YaNzZ Has Been Breathing For 22 Yrs
DoN'T cRy cOz It'Z oVeR SmiLe CoZ iT HaPpENeD...
~MoRe Me~
E-mail me at cyanzz@yahoo.com.sg
FaVe SiTeZ |LyRicS| |X ClamP| |GuiTar ChorDs| |SaMSuNg rIngTonEz| |NicE reCiPes| |NiCe MiDis|
E-mail me at cyanzz@yahoo.com.sg
FaVe SiTeZ |LyRicS| |X ClamP| |GuiTar ChorDs| |SaMSuNg rIngTonEz| |NicE reCiPes| |NiCe MiDis|
~Wad SaY U~
~mY hiStoRy~
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Tuesday, May 31, 2005
goodness gracious me... this is so not true... tsk... i dun flirt arnd with relationships alright...The Keys to Your Heart |
| You are attracted to those who have a split personality - cold as ice on the outside but hot as fire in the heart. |
| In love, you feel the most alive when everything is uncertain, one moment heaven... the next moment hell. |
| You'd like to your lover to think you are optimistic and happy. |
| You would be forced to break up with someone who was ruthless, cold-blooded, and sarcastic. |
| Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with. |
| Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment. |
| You think of marriage pessimistically. You don't think happy marriages exist anymore. |
| In this moment, you think of love as something you don't need. You just feel like flirting around and playing right now. |
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Saturday, May 28, 2005
hie ppl! i am back... wow... what a week... a short week that seems so long.... so many times i just wana give up and stop workin... but i just realised that if i wana go for the trip with mao... i need abt 600 bucks.... haiz... gota work for another week i guess... =[anywae the past week haf been a short week... tues... wed (half day) and thurs... den fri... den sat (half day) wee! so... basically i've met so many types of ppl for the past week... some are realli nice... some i realli curse them to choke on their food... so damn rude... gr... and some are so super stingy... juz lemmi share a few funny experiences here... haha
once i was actualli approaching this grp of navy officers i guess... not more than 25 in age i suppose... and they were trying to ask for my number (wahhaha... am i supposed to feel honoured?) and then... i said... u can buy my whole bag of merchandise i can consider... den i showed them my premium product... a hip hop bunny... and then one of the guys who was drinking sugar cane actualli spat out one whole mouth of sugar cane on my laser pointer pens which i was testing out for his colleagues... it was super damn funny... and he was so paiseh he walked off to buy tissue and came back... decided to buy a pen from me... wahhaha.... kao... i laff like mad... whats so scary abt a bunny that u can actualli spit out water??? gosh....
and i realised this job is seriously tiring but if i learn to enjoy it... it can be fun too... at least i m not afraid of approaching anyone now... realli met one of the worst ppl in the world... and there are some realli nice experiences as well...
met one old lady boss of a medical shop... and she was telling me abt her son and daughter in laws... who always despise the things she buy for her grandchildren... =[ (i'm actualli selling educational story books and kids stuff if u are wondering...) and she was telling me how much tos and stuff she buy for them but her daughter in law nv takes them home... how unappreciative! =[ also met some old uncles who haf to work even though they are so old coz their children actualli dun visit them often... aye... so sad rite...
bahz... lol... and in this job... we actualli get asked for jobs in alota places... sales promoters... waitressing... 7 eleven... and i enjoy chattin to ppl... haha... tok crap and waste my time... which i may be able to use these time selling more stuff.. but well... at least it makes my hate my job less... lol alright i dun realli hate it... but it seriously sucks for making me walk like hell... veri good exercise though... tsk...
yeah... got alota interesting experiences la... but i guess i'll stop here... or i'll go rattling on 4ever... and i'm beginning to tok to everyone like i am talking to my customers! oh shyt man... bahz... oopz... shall stop here! tataz~
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Sunday, May 22, 2005
hm... love this song... =] dedicated to dearest capp! lol... hooray... tml's a holiday... can take a break... yest... went to pri skl gathering... wow... realli amazed... they even invited our teachers! so cool... and so many faces i totally cant recognise... but it was realli great meeting everyone up...and after that... wanted to catch a cab so i can take a train from pasir ris.. but wth... all cabs, as usual, goes into hiding at 1130... plus these 2 idiotic guys actualli snatched a cab from me... look how gentlemanly they are... and in the end.... i cant take any train home... no bus no train... kenot go home...
well... so anywae, decided to go for supper with kai and zhihui... and went block 85... and den i got a free ride home... even though i stay in the west... tskk.... haha wee~ thankz siah... and dint reach home til abt 3.30 a.m. but it was great meeting up with so many ppl in one day~
finally can get some rest this week~ hooray~ and it wont be long b4 i save up enough money~ =]
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Friday, May 20, 2005
in case anyone has been wondering what happened to me... for the past few dayz? not online 24/7 as usual and not bloggin so much? hoho... that is coz wonderful yanzz has been running arnd industrial areas under the fcuking hot sun and carrying DAMn heavy fairy tale story books... resulting in muscle aching everywhere, blueblacks increasing mysteriously everyday and skin getting thicker everyday...yes u are right... i'm now yanzz da wonderwoman who turned from a shy gurl, afraid of approaching ppl, into a thick skin salesgurl in just less than 2 days... ahaha! ask me to sell it to u, dun wry, i'll make sure u will buy it =]
ok not so exaggerating... but still, i've realli smiled and tok so much i think i'm gona get sick of my own voice man... no joke, this job is realli inhumane... if anyone ask me y i do it? i onli do it coz of someone i love... tsk~
alright its bed time soon... lemmi catch a wink~ nite everyone!
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Thursday, May 19, 2005
oopz... lol ok i take back my words... i noe there is still someone out there who understands =] muakzz love ya dearie capp!! haha.... tml shall be a better day!!! hit 100 bucks profit~~ yes!!! i can do it!!!!: = : = : = : = : = : = :
Wednesday, May 18, 2005
on average, haf arnd 10 blueblacks... 4 blisters and 2 numb feets with 2 numb hands... forgot to add 2 numb shoulders... wonderful... what the hell am i doing? and nobody... nobody understands it at all... tired... no mood to tok...: = : = : = : = : = : = :
Monday, May 16, 2005
wahaha its quiz time!!1. Birthday: 23rd feb la
2.Place of Birth: singapore
3. Sign: pisces
4. Male or Female: Female
5. Occupation: wonderful slacker... lol no la workin part time as salesgurl now~! wahaha
6. Residence: jurong west
7. Screen name: wads that? yanzz?
Your Appearence
8. Hair Color: black and abit brown lol
9. Hair Long or Short: long
10. Eye Color: black i guess
11. Skin Color: not black
12. Height: 1.58m (stop calling me short.... gr...)
13. Weight: duno lol... last time i weighed 2 yrs ago... erm.. 46 kg?
14. Shoe Size: 5 or 6... 4got...
15. Braces?: pain la and i think i dun need that yet
16. Glasses?: oh yar... this reminds me.. i hafent pluck my contacts out yet...
17. Piercings: ears lor
18. Tattoos: pain...
19. Righty or Lefty: Righty
___Your 'Firsts'___
20. First Kiss: heee
21. First B.F/ G.F: heeeee~~ =p
22. First Buddy: alot wor... jojo, turtle, ichee, mao... etc etc
23. First Award: lol... i rem i won quite alota story telling competitions in pri skl.. wahha
24. First Sport U Joined?: hmm... badminton?
25. First pet: goldfish? ermm... got terrapin and rabbit too... 4got which came first
26. First Vacation: ahaha... most prob malaysia... genting mebe
27. First Concert: turtle rhonda's sister mini performance concert in hongkong~
___ Favorites___
28. Movie: almost all... expt freaky or ghostly onez...
29. TV Show(s): ALOT.... ahaha... too many to list animes still rulez though
30. Color: used to be purple den blue.. and mebe grey... now mebe... pink? ahaha
31. Band: hm... F.I.R! used to be energy though lol...
32. Song: sweet or touching songs ba...
33. Food: ebi tempura!! wahaha.. and mebe wanton mee... haha haf been eating alot recently...
34. Drink: green tea! all time fave!
35. Candy: eh... no preference
36. Sport To Play: badminton! actualli i love almost all sports~
37. Sport To Watch: everything expt soccer lol... wonder y
38. Brand Of Clothing: samuel and kevin!! hoho and nike perhaps...
39. Store: erm... comics store... haha and pets shop lol
40. School Program: holidayz
41. Animal: doggy, kitty, rabby, hammy, etc etc... aha
42. Book: i used to realli love christopher pike's bookz~ esp last vampire
43. Magazine: seldom
___Currently___
44. Eating: wanton mee
45. Drinking: plain water
46. Typing: harlo
47. Online?: er... abit fei hua rite
48. Listening To: dear shixian'z blog's music --- shou fang kai...
49. Thinking About: muscle ache after a day of running around
50. Wanting To: go langkawi and genting in june =]
51. Watching: gona watch my anime soon =]
52. Wearing: t shirt and shorts? with ma towel wrapped arnd da head
___Your Future___
53. Want Kids?: hoho... yeah y not
54. Want to Get Married?: =]
55. Careers in Mind: designer actualli wld love to just own a pet shop haha
__Which is Better With The Opposite Sex___
56. Cute or pretty: how do guys be pretty? lol... cute ba
57. Lips or Eyes: Eyes
58. Hugs or Kisses: both? lol
59. Short or Tall: not short but kenot too tall until i look like humpty dumpty
60. Easygoing or serious: easy going
61. Romantic or Spontaneous: Romantic
62. Fatty or Skinny: no fat
63. Sensitive or Loud: sensitive
64. Hook-up or Relationship: relationship
65. Sweet or Caring: both pls
66. Trouble Maker or Hestiant One: ermmm hate hesistant ppl actualli
___Have You Ever___
67. Kissed a Stranger: erm... dun think so
68. Ran Away From Home: more like chased out of home
69. Broken a Bone: not yet
70. Broken Someones Heart: i dunno
71. Broke Up With Someone: not
72. Turned Someone Down: ermmm... i duno
73. Cried When Someone Died: yeah alot... which show? winter sonata? haha... i can cry like mad over a show
74. Cried At School: lol... yar... coz of some idiot but i think that person duno though
___Do You Believe In___
75. God: mebe
76. Miracles: hope so
77. Love At First Sight: not realli... but i believe in fate
78. Ghosts: hoho... dun come near me
93. Aliens: dunno
79. Angels: dunno
80. Heaven: dunno
81. Hell: dunno
82.Yourself: sumtimes
83. Horoscope: nice things i believe bad things i dun... haha
__Answer Truthfully__
84. Is There Someone/thing U Want But u Know u Can't Have? there onli 1 thing i want now.... but i dunno if i can or not have it... not up to me to make the decision i guess...
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Tuesday, May 10, 2005
hiez~ i'm back... the trip was well... good of course coz i get to see capp again... and bad of course too... coz i miss him so much againz... haiz...this time rnd i realli dint do anything much... first day... juz rested in da hotel after the tiring bus ride... and watched a movie at gurney... kingdom of heaven... not a bad show... though i seriously find it traumatizing... war shows are always gruesome... with all the killing and bloodshed... eekz... but the plot and effects were realli not bad... i recommend~~ hehz... and i dint get to see capp til the nite... and just for a short while coz he needs to work... and skippin dinner again!! gr... so i bot some dinner for him...
went to this playground with mao and mav after delivering the food... lol... and i sat on da swing... look at this wonderful pic~ that mao took... i look invisible! cool? haha...
then, we decided to buy a deck of poker cards to play some games in da hotel to actualli waste time coz this time rnd... we seriously duno where else we can go...
2nd day... was awoken by a knock on da door... and capp came... tsk... aye... and i lazed arnd on da bed for a while b4 goin down for breakfast... well... we both agree totally dat the hotel food realli sukz... ended up just eating kokocrunch with milk lol... then we went for a drive arnd pg... and haiz... he's off too work again... so i slacked arnd in da hotel the whole day... lol... watched harry potter, miss congeniality and alota documentary shows... bahz... at least i made full use of the hotel facility... TV and aircon... haha... when capp finally came, almost midnight ler... haiz...
3rd day... we actualli woke at 6 a.m. and went for breakfast at this coffeeshop... had egg toast... lol... and then went to prangin... wanted to catch a movie but it was damn early so we actualli went to take a bus! lol... when he had a car... well... but it was quite interesting... and da stupid cinema took so long to open... so we had to walk round and round da mall... with minimal air conditioning... took a few pics too lol...
on the other hand... the stupid movie theatre was freezing cold... br... and we watched one missed call2... well... not a veri interesting plot but i guess some parts are rather freaky... though i still seriously duno y that 'ghost' wana murder all those ppl...
there is this one touching part too... where da guy actualli sacrifice himself to save da gurl who was supposed to die... aw... so sad... went for lunch after that but dint realli haf appetite... aye... coz capp gota leave again... dint get to see him til da nite again... haiz... shall not elaborate...
4th day... gota catch the bus at 9.30 a.m. and it was raining so damn heavily... tsk... time realli flies huh... and b4 we knew it... da bus gota leave... =[ haiz... it juz suks... well... but i guess its da lil time that we haf that makes us cherish this time more... haiz... gota start workin and save enuff money... mebe i can go genting next... lol...
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Thursday, May 05, 2005
hmm lol... i was walking arnd popular yest and i decided to buy this book called "rich dad, poor dad" first time ever i m reading this kinda book, not to even mention buying a book... lol... i seriously wonder what is wrong with me... but then, its quite an interesting book though it keeps repeating its points... rather boring at times...oh and i found this part veri interesting... "listening is more important than talking. If that was not true, God would not have given us two ears and only one mouth. Too many people think with their mouth instead of listening to absorb new ideas and possibilities. They argue instead of asking questions" hehz... true anot? lol.. i find it realli true... but of course i believe, we shldnt just listen fully to what others say... at times, we need our own stand too...
and i notice sumting abt ppl who are realli successful in their life... not onli intelligence... they realli have the determination and they know what they are doing, know what they want in life...
come to think of it... who doesnt want to be rich? lol... of course it feels good to know you have some money with you so u wont starve... but contentment can be a joy too~ i just want to have enough...i dun need luxurious cars, houses or branded clothes to compete with others... who cares abt what others think? everyone has their way of life... lol and this is what i want in life... stay happy and contented... and most imptly, have fun! i dun want to slog like a cow both in work and studies... whats the point of having so much money when u are not happy... lol
weee~~ todayz da day i'm settin off to pg~ hooray~~
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omg... i woke up this mornin with da worst nitemare... spotted 2 ugly pimples on my face!!! =[ =[ =[ EeeeeeeeeeeeeeEEEE! how can they come at this time... sobz... SHOooo sHoo go away!
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Monday, May 02, 2005
well... this is indeed quite a nice song... thanks to ermm.. anonymous who sent this song to me...i guess this song realli reflect ur feelings rite?
Songs are interesting media... to actualli translate ppl's feelings into music... i used to like alota genre of music... loud, noisy... slow sentimental... anything... as long as they just sound nice who cares abt the lyrics?... however, as my age grows with the days... i realise... actualli song lyrics can be meaningful too... and if one can realli appreciate the 'emotions' inside da song... u will feel touched and grow to love the song...
like what someone told me b4... "u cant read a sentence and think its beautiful if u dun feel love or are in love.." well i guess it applies to song lyrics too rite? lol...
the first cut is the deepest? hmm... true huh? i've nv realli been hurt b4 so i dun realli noe how it feels... alwayz thought that if i give up enough or work hard enough... i will surely achieve what i realli want... but TET... this is seldom true... esp when it comes to 'relationships' its not like a fairy tale... where u wait for that one day your 'prince charming' will come and u will live happily ever after... well.. at least thats what i used to think when i was young la... hey! i noe i m naive but u mean this thought never crossed ur mind b4? lol...
what i find interesting in this song is how the gurl is trying to accept another guy coz in a way, she needs him to help her heal her 'wound'... if it was me in the past... i'll surely say she is so irritating... how can u 'use' someone as a substitute... if the person u love is not that guy... how can u accept him just coz u want to forget another person? thats purely selfish!
but well... somehow... what i see now, in da song, is how gr8 that guy is.... lol... to b able to accept her past and want to help her 4get her past 'wound'... this is called unconditional love huh? and yep... it is not true that everytime u sacrifice sumting... u will gain sumting of equal value in return... (lol this sound familiar...) sumtimes... we must not onli think of what we can gain when we do certain things... aint it better if u do things just simply coz u want to and not coz u want sumting in return, selflessly? i think thats the zui4 gao1 jing4 jie4.... lol... (highest state of achievement)... of course i cant do that yet la... i m not god who can forgive everyone... erm... well but anywae... at least i'm trying... giving can be a wonderful feeling too~ lol esp when u noe what u haf given up can make someone happy... hahz... and this will realli mean that u love that person veri much... lol...
wow... i've crapped quite alot these few days... not bad not bad... it truly shows how bored i am... lol... and oh i 4got to mention i TRIPPED AND FELL (again... y do i not seem to be able to walk properly? =[ ) while crossing the road... luckily jo, turtle not here today to witness the wonderful falling... or i'll be a laffing stock again hah! but ouch it realli hurts... =[
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Sunday, May 01, 2005
hah... i seriously dun understand some ppl... they onli care abt themselves... they think that they shld be prioritized... and they think i am rich... zzzz... if u have brains all the more u shld noe that i'm saving up for some purposes... and not everyone can have the freedom to do whatever they want... play whenever they want...i dun care if ppl say i am foolish... or stupid... to want to wait for sumting that seems so far away... it is my life and i know what i want... even if one day i'll get hurt, it is for me to learn... even if u haf lost hope for certain things doesnt mean i cant have hope in anything...
Its juz disappointing to hear frens i care abt say such things to me... sumone said this... "if u carry on like that, u're gona lose all your frens" so our frenship is just so weak that they are easily lost? den perhaps... i'm better off without these frens who onli care abt themselves and cant even spare a thought for others...
i'm realli glad i haf great frens like jo, mao, shixianz, ichee and turtle rhonda... at least i can tell that they are realli happy for me... so thankz guys out there~ muakz!!!! love u all~~
and capp too~ though u're seldom here coz u're busy and i truly wonder if u read this~ but hafing u in my life has been great~ lol~ so whatever some idiots say... i dun care... i wun choose playing a game of pool or a movie over someone i cherish... so what if i gota eat magi mee everyday?
hehz... enuff of complainin... gota slp soon b4 my eyerings get even darker... real scary... =[
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