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Monday, January 31, 2005
heyz! this is taken from mao which is taken from her fren's blog... sadz but it'z realli true eh?*Have you ever noticed that the worst way to miss someone
is when they're right beside you
and yet you can never have them ?..
*Have you ever wondered which hurts the most ;
saying something and wishing you had not ,
or saying nothing and wishing you had ?
*I guess the most important things
are the hardest things to say .
They are the things you get ashamed of
because words diminish them .
Words shrink things that seemed timeless
when they were in your head ,
to no more than living size when
they are brought out .
*Have you ever rejected getting into a relationship
because you were so afraid of losing what you already have
with that person ?
*Have you everwanted to love someone with everything you had ,
but that other person was too afraid to let you ?
*Too many of us stay walled because we are too afraid
to care too much , for fear that the other person
does not care as much , or at all .
*Have you ever loved someone and
they had absolutely no idea whatsoever ?
Or fell for your best-friend in the entire world ,
and then sat around and watched him/her fall for someone else ?
*Have you ever denied your feelings for someone
because your fear of rejection was too hard to handle ?
*We tell lies when we are afraid ..
afraid of what we don't know ,
afraid of what others will think ,
afraid of what will be found out about us .
But every time we tell a lie ,
the fear we're afraid of grows stronger .
*Life. It's just all about risks
hmm... interesting one... veri true actualli, makes one realli ponder... anywae, in ntu now, using their com... dun ask mi why i'm in ntu when i'm from nus... lol... aye... my stupid com has problems connecting to internet and i duno what the hell happened... arghh grr... i feel terrible, kinda handicapped without msn, esp when i cant tok to some ppl i want to tok to... sighz... realli sukz... see how humans nowadats depend too much on technology? gr... i shall stop grumbling... tataz...
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Saturday, January 29, 2005
hmmm one thing that suddenly came to my mind... how do ppl define beauty? and y do ppl always search for perfection though verbally they always say beauty is just superficial? well... actualli no matter how ppl defend themselves, presentation does play a part rite... if u are dressed sloppily, hair unkempt and look like a panda, no one will think this person is gd looking even if u haf veri nice features etc...on the other hand, even if u look ordinary, no distinctively nice features, as long as u gota smart look, no one will say u are ugly... gals who act so 'bimbo-itic' will nv be respected while guys who behave like hooligans will nv be considered seriously... so it is true, the way u present urself just show ur character...
there is no such thing as ugly in this world... unless u lose urself... what do i mean by that? confidence! thats what i mean... i believe that if u haf da confidence in urself, no one will ever look down upon u... when one is confident, even when u fail, u dun falter or fall apart... u'll pick urself up and go on...
so pessimists out there, must be confident of urself! everyone's got their own strengths and weaknesses! dun dwell on ur weaknesses, change them or improve on ur strengths! u can shine!! hahahah this sounds so... er... duno how to describe... not sumting da cranky yanzz will say rite? but still, saying all those, its not like i can realli do them... but it can be sumting we all can strive to achieve! haha... alright, enuff of crap~ tata! gd song to motivate ppl here! the spore idol finale song~
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yoz~ this is one of my fave songs~ concert version~~ enjoy~
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Thursday, January 27, 2005
sighz... i hate being restricted or being forced to do things.... and WTH i truly hate teaching so y the hell is my mum forcing mi to give tuitions... and its not that i dun want to, its just that i realli haf no fixed timing... dun tell mi i can do it if i realli manage my time well... if u dun understand just shut up coz i need time to get ideas, stress wun give me any inspiration... and whatever job it is, if anyone ask mi to teach tuition one more time, i will jolly well snap at u...i nv did ask my dad for unnecessary money... i nv did wish he will do 2 jobs in order to support my studies... if its so torturing, just let mi drop skl ok... they think that i feel happy they are working so hard? i can get a bank loan if they cant support me... whatever it is, y must they make it seem like they are the pathetic poor souls who are working so hard to support this damn stressed out daughter...
there are so many ways out but they just haf to torture mi like that and i truly dun understand y...
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Sunday, January 23, 2005
this is quite a nice song, the more i listen the more i like it =] aha, and the singer is cute too haha...: = : = : = : = : = : = :
Saturday, January 22, 2005
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Friday, January 21, 2005
hmmm went to another cousin's wedding registration today... and well... y is the whole world getting married... this is scary....anywae, it was rather shocking news coz i heard he just broke off with his ex less than half a yr ago and now he is getting married to this woman who he knows for less than half a yr?? goodness... and... well... the thing is, she is actualli 11 yrs older than him... hmm.... realli makes one ponder... they surely noe ppl will tok abt this but they still went ahead anywae... i guess i truly wish them all the best~~
well, hey! i noe i am onli 19 and toking abt these kinda stuff is like so far away... but hell, i realli wonder what isit that make ppl realli wana spend the rest of their lives together... such a scary thing... REST OF UR LIFE!!??? what if halfway tru, u realise he is not the one u want? i mean humans are humans, we change as we grow and what u want may just vary at another point of time in ur life... so who can guarantee u wun change? and if so, whats the point of the signing on dat piece of paper... will ppl hang on even though there is no feelings anymore just coz of that paper? thats sad... or mebe they just got used to each other so much that they dun haf the courage to let go?
i dun like to hold on to things that no longer belong to me, if that person is happier without u, y shldnt we let go? well, thinking abit too farfetched am i? lol...
goodness i got another blueblack on my leg... when did i knock myself??? omg ouch!!!
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Tuesday, January 18, 2005
wee~~~ accompanied mao to go make her tattoo... not bad, nice!! but i wun do it!!! PAIN la!!! mao mao u shld take a pic and show us in ur blog!!! ahahaha...hah, played gb again yest for awhile... lol... those ppl in there are still as rude as ever... well... but i had lots and lotsa memories from gb so i shall not condemn it... realli sry to da jam hamster for saying the wrong thing!!! =[
on da train just now, heard mao say i m a 'rapidly changing' person.... meaning i change my mind damn fast ahahah... and one moment i will think this way the other moment i just totally changed my mind in da opposite direction... well... hmmm... TRUE!!! aha... indecisivesnesS? hmm... alright alright... xianz!! i noe i am weird... and i always ask qns that make u feel veri difficult to ans? lol... sry ler... mebe i've a few screws loose here and there... so conclusion... if i'm too unpredictable... ppl out there pls bear with me!! i'm still in search for da correct screw driver to screw my brain right... hah~ =[
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Sunday, January 16, 2005
ashaha! i got contacts! lol...anywae, this is quite an old song but like it, learnig how to play on guitar!!!
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Saturday, January 15, 2005
woa~ crit was over... my grp dint did as well as i tot we cld... well... i guess we tried our best...anywae, went to our 'cheap jap restaurant' in clementi again to eat with mao... and we sat there to tok for 3 or 4hrs? lol... well... tok abt so many things! guyz, archi, blah blah...
made me realli ponder... after a few cases i've heard... so is it realli true that the first thing that came to a guy's mind is sex when it comes to b-g relationships? aha... i guess 90% are like that... thats sad... and since they are like that, y are some gals so stupid to let these guys have what they want? in the end, when they got what they wanted they just shirk every responsibilites and disappear... what bastards are those... hope these ppl can just go to hell right now...
aha... enough of bitching... if there are guys out there reading this and disagree, u better search ur soul and realli swear with ur life and prove that i am wrong!! and gals open ur eyes big big and dun turn dumb when u fall in love!!!
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Friday, January 14, 2005
weeheee design is over!! though i dint realli do much expt for cutting a few box, painting small balls and making clay figures?? lol... but i like it... there is this guy who is great at model making and he practically did the whole thing himself... well... and the seniors did all da graphics... so what else can i do rite?? haha... buti feel bad coz they dint slp for 2 days? and i went home early today due to stupid gastric pain? felt terrible... first time i had such a strong attack... lasted for almost 2 hrs and i realli cant take it until i almost cant walk!!!well... but slept for a while and its gone... phew...
so i slpt like a pig til now... and my dad has gone for his partime work? =[... i think its those tideous job in ntuc or what... and he is working coz we need money to buy things during new year?? wt... i rather not buy those things den... and y is my mum like so nonchalent abt it... watching tv like its nothing... =[ aye there are some things i just dun understand...
jam hamster gonna jam for some time... =[
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Wednesday, January 12, 2005
hm... second day of da skl and i gota stay back in skl!! wth! but, at least the work was not that tough... we were doing at our own pace... well.. first time gota work with seniors and it is rather interesting... i dont realli believe in the seniors being much more superior to us, in fact i feel that there is surely some things we can learn from each other... hah!! but i noe some other studio ppl's seniors are irritating coz they just dominate the whole proj and 'insist' on their ideas? not that they dun hear the yr1's idea out but i guess they just think theirs are better? arh that suks... lucky me, it aint that serious for my side, they are quite nice actualli and in fact i think my studio is the first to stay overnight...hm... so much so for my bitching... what is my new proj now? design our studio and studio lounge!!! aha... doesnt sound interesting rite... =[ but i think out design is quite exciting! hope we get to do well! yepz...
nothing much these few dayz jam hamster is not arnd, jamming somewhere in aceh? lol... hope the ppl there dun suffer more instead! =p
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Monday, January 10, 2005
hah!! me and mao decided to write a list abt qualities of guys that we find attractive! interesting not? all my dear gal frens out there can try too ahahah...1. oh~ i think guyz that can play musical intruments are quite cool~ esp da guitar! better if they can teach me!! my guitar skills suk...
2. must noe when to be serious and when to have fun... not too boring not too playful!
3. listens to me when needed~ understanding + caring!
4. can be nice to gals but must know da limits esp when gals flirt at them, if they still smile smile be nice... hah! big nono.
5. have ambitions, a goal in their life and know how to cherish life, dun take things for granted~
6. smarter or more capable then me... hehz... smart may not mean in skl work coz i believe some ppl are smart in other ways too. results dun show everything!
7. loves da sea and da nature too~
8. Sweet!
9. ah must love animals too!! kenot be cruel to them!
10. i dun realli care abt looks but at least he must noe how to present himself, not too sloppy or nerdy.. oh and i dun like too tall/rather big sized guyz coz basically i am short and small size i dun want feel like a humpty dumpty!!! average can le... not too short also!
11. must have a nice smile, and can cheer me up!!!
lastly, if he fufils all the above and can cook veri well... i'll be the first to marry him! ahhaha
but come to think abt it... when we realli fall in love, who cares abt any criteria rite haha... like mao said, all u will wish is for that person to be happy... well, just wrote those for fun... hope they have entertained u!
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Sunday, January 09, 2005
It's amazing how sumtimes when u are waiting for ppl to appear or waiting for sumting to happen... u just cant seem to slp even though u are damn tired... and even while u are sleeping, subconsciously, u will hope that sumting is going to happen or appear and u will jump out of bed and check if what u are waiting for has arrived... insomnia? nahzsome ppl actualli force themselves to keep awake the whole night just to see a nice sunrise and when their wait is paid off, even though it onli lasts for a few minutes, they are happy... actualli these ppl can just slp and wake earlier and they can still catch the sunrise rite?? but... they are still afraid of missing it... what if they cant wake up in time and misses it?
so whats the moral of the story? waiting may be tiring but when the moment u are waiting for arrives, TWEET!!! nothing beats the sense of satisfaction~~ and if u miss da moment u are waiting for... it nv comes back again~ so conclusion... dun oversleep!
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Friday, January 07, 2005
i truly dont understand how some ppl can get so addicted over games... i do play them too... but hello we need to get back to reality... there are other things out there waiting for u... we cant just play games our whole life can we? aye... i'm beginning to hate ms and wow...: = : = : = : = : = : = :
Tuesday, January 04, 2005
heyz i like this song~ jo dun kill me! who ask u not to post often!! so i shall put this song on my blog first!well anywae, yest or rather today 'morning' me, jo and kaiz had a wonderful experience with da police... as u noe, jo is taking her driving test nxt week and she wants practice abit so kaiz decided to be nice to let her drive for a while and awhile became not realli awhile... haha... we were actualli waiting for jan so dat we can go airport together to send turtle chewz off... and so drove around pasir ris area... and somehow, amazingly we reached da changi prison area.... and *tink* we caught sight of da police car... and jo started to panic!! i quote " i veri scared lei how how how!!???" aha... and innocent me was watching this all the while as jo drove slower and slower and the police car finally asked us to stop... kaiz got down and *tweet* all da taking down of particulars... all the begging... luckily da police decided to be nice and just gave a warning... if not if kaiz cant fly anymore, jo i will gladly attend both of ur wedding ahahaha!!!
but, i guess it is a good lesson to us... jo, u gota drive faster in ur test, kaiz, u gota stop being nice and dun let ppl drive ur car... haha... as for me... next time if i ever get to drive, dun drive in pasir ris or near changi prison... lol...
and so turtle is off to US again... hope she is sleeping well on her plane now... take care yeah~ and though she will nv read this... thankz for da cute turtle robe!!! alright, skl starting real soon... i decied to work hard and get at least a caps of 3.5 , i dun want to get streamed into urban designing... yepz~~ shauna, u too~ lets work hard k~ for a better future!!! =)
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Saturday, January 01, 2005
hmmm something amazing happened today... was playing ms and somehow xianz was having dispute with this guy who accused her of ksing... well... on the other hand, me mao and mav always kena ks-ed and we will be damn pissed... so that guy followed xianz and me and we were just throwing insults at each other... somehow, i realli duno what happened... i was realli tired of all this kinda arguments... so i just tried to be nice and stop insulting him... at first he was trying to compare results.. (i duno how we came to this) and he said his psle was 281, in chinese high blah blah... so i was like... since u are educated, y do u say such low class stuff.. and blah blah.. in the end, i guess we are both tired of da stupid insulting session so i decided to give him a few items that i picked and had no use... but these can sell la... anywae, so, tadaz~ no more insults... he became nicer and we sorta chatted for a while... so enemies can become frens too eh?so friends, next time u get pissed or damn angry... y not try to be nice and tok it out... its not worth it to hurt each other or waste ur energy getting angry...
so much so for da story... i realli think games can show a human's nature... nasty tempered ppl like me will continue that stupid insulting session and wun relent until both sides get reali tired... gb was like that... ms too... and one thing i gota agree with mav... y do ppl get so pissed when they get defamed? pride isnt it, coz ppl are actualli taking away something from u... and these ppl always try to look for frens to come back and defame you back... so... now, ppl who dun play the game will say... y go tru all these trouble? the game realli make ppl become vengeful eh... i totally dun like the idea... but i dun like my frens to get bullied too... so y cant ppl play their games in peace... and stop affecting other ppl's mood by doing irritating things... worse still if they think they are damn great, higher level than others.. esp that medicine faculty bullshitter... (i'm sure mao will understand what i'm saying)
who says u cant learn anything frm playing games... i learnt alot... i realise how easily a person can be affected by a game... i used to hate ppl who say 'lol' and after gb... i'm sure u can see me using that in almost every sentence... gb also makes a person more vulgar and irritable... coz when u miss ur shot and ppl scold u... u will feel rotten... and i dun understand... so y must those insensitive idiots scold ppl when they miss? its just a game... win or lose is it that important? i guess its all about ego... as for ms... the ksing thing is realli something something i dun understand... how do u define ks (it means stealing other ppl's kill btw)... does it mean if u hit that creature once, its yours and nobody else can hit it anymore? is that a rule in da game? but... even so, y must ppl try to kill things that others obviously are killing... there are so many other creatures around and u gota steal this person's kill to rob his/her experience point?
what a realistic world... some ppl just love to abuse their power... such a cute game, and ppl gota show their ugly human nature...
on the other hand, there are happy wonderful times too... played both of da games mostly with mao, mav, xianz and jh, had fun when we do realli stupid things... counted down in ms for xmas and new year... interesting eh haha... and we jumped to our death for the fun of it even though we lost our exp points... we tok crap, made lame jokes, got hyper and shared things etc... realli nice to do these with ya frens... now there is another new game... haha looks rather cute too... not sure if i will jump to that new game but anywae, its cool to play games with frens~ skl starting, hope the new yr will be great~ tok alot today~ HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!!!
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