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Friday, December 31, 2004

these few days, the weather has been gloomy, dark and rainy... i do like rainy days... but i guess at this point of time where sadness is everywhere, it suits the atmosphere eh~ referring to the tsunami thingy... well, its da 31st last day of the year... any new yr resolutions? i do have a few... truly hope next yr will be a better yr...
well.. its aledi 930a.m. was damn sleepy just now but realli wide awake now... reflections on this yr? yr 2004 has been a real 'colourful' yr for me... first 'serious' work which lasted for more than half a yr... entry to uni... meeting of ppl... tru gb, tru uni, tru work... someone told me good things nv last but i believe i can make these good things last if i realli put my mind into it... so i guess thats one of da new yr resolution!! lol do i sound too serious?? new yr older le must think more matured-ly rite haha... shyt yucks older!!! grrr that means i am turning 20 soon!!! YUCKSSS horrible!!!! DISGUSTING!!!

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Thursday, December 30, 2004

yeah~~ i love this song~~ =)

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Monday, December 27, 2004

hmm... xmas is over... not realli veri special... i got a winnie da pooh mug and a forever frens photo album... quite nice... and the bbq was not bad we fried the chicken wings instead coz everyone lazy to bbq haha...
results out too... i dun think i did veri well... but i guess it aint that bad either since i dint realli work hard for it... last minute plus gb-ing even when there is exams haha... shauna will understand i guess... and as expected i got a C+ for building materials!! i realli do hate it... its so dam boring...
just heard abt da earthquake in indonesia that affected so many places... that realli suks... pam's in indonesia now? hey hope it dint affect her... and i was shocked when it affected pg as well... its like wt?? somewhere so near sg can be affected too? cant realli believe it when johan told me da news and that his fren's fren actualli died coz of that stupid tidal wave that is apparently 7 feet high? not sure how high but still... its scary...
i love the peaceful sea, love to go to the beach... but when u noe it can also kill.. it reali sounds scary... hah...
so ppl out there cherish ur lives and ppl arnd u coz from what i observe... the earth is getting cranky nowadays... mebe the end of world is realli coming soon and who noes tml a comet will be crashing into us... lol... and live ur life to da fullest every minute every second... yepz~ its late... ms is getting boring mebe i will go lvl up one last time haha... skl starting soon anywae... which means war coming... sobz... shauna!!! we die together k dun leave me behind...

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Friday, December 24, 2004

its the festive season of the yr again~~ xmas!!! lol... was reading dear siyi mixed breed's blog.... lol... one can nv fail to laff when u are with her... she always seem to entertain ppl whenever she says sumting... haha...
anywae, at my cousin's house now, supposed to haf a bbq... but i realli hate to stand there in midst of the immense heat... haha had enuff during my guiding days.. chopping firewood and raising a fire... aiks... i am actualli missing those days.. amazing... haha
haf been stuck at home recently and i seemed to haf missed alota outings!! the 2d one, so sry huiling.. lets haf a new yr outing all go visiting... killing two birds with one stone haha.. i need money seriously...
oh turtle rhonda is back!! hey u i bet she will nv read this but still come back nv call us wth! hmm hope we can meet up soon coz i think jo dem pissed at me for always being late... in fact nowadays when i meet ppl i am always late by more than an hour... aye... so sry frens.... i'll change it... try k...
gift exchanging later... quite alota ppl here... hmm my aunty's frens from penang or sabah here too... dint tok to them eh... but its realli rather crowded here... in this biggie house... yeah~ though no xmas tree but its indeed a joyous season~~ the more the merrier~~ wish all of u out there a MERRY XMAS!! do enjoy it with ur loved onez~~ =)

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Saturday, December 18, 2004

i realise that... when ppl u realli cherish dun trust u... it is realli sad...
i'm just trying to enjoy what i am doing, aint life supposed to be like that? even if it is not sumting i want, y cant we just try to see onli the good things that we are doing instead of detesting what we need to do...
it is disheartening when nobody understand what u are going through... i nv did want to work... first it was my parents who can even quarrel with me over a pair of work shoes... ppl always contradict themselves dun they... first, they dun want to give me money... i understand that coz they are not earning alot either... which is why i need to work... and when i need to work, i try to save costs by borrowing a pair of shoes and all i got back is a stupid quarrel... everyone just think that i am working coz i love working?? that is simply stupid... who in the world will love working... i gave up my rest, my play and so many things just to earn a few more bucks... when skl starts i wun be able to rest at all... so i realli dun understand y ppl think i am living my life so easily... just bcoz i wrote a rather optimistic description of my work doesnt mean i love it...
it is true i am beginning to despair, esp when ppl i realli cherish cant understand what i am going tru' at all... i noe they are going tru a hard time too... but venting ur stress on ur loved ones and hurting them is veri different...
i need a break from everything... i nv lied abt what i do... i value trust... and when i trust ppl i expect them to trust me back... sigh this is a real depressing blog... but i guess venting everything here makes me feel a lil better...

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Wednesday, December 15, 2004

wow... today's gona be my third day of work in hyatt... well.. so far so good... its damn tiring... was carrying this stupid tray of drinks for 2 hours and my arms hurt like mad now... legs are numb from da stupid pair of shoes... but i rather like it, i mean the job... may be tiring but can be quite fun at times... besides those that we need to carry heavy stuff...
learnt quite a bit of things too... the setting of table and serving of those high class ppl... lol... monday was this malaysia-singapore duno what thing where dick lee came as guest appearance and tues was this russian duno what thing with all those russians toking weird english... the smell of red wine, white wine and beer was filling my nose truout the dinner...
oh forgot to mention... so lucky me got to try the desserts left over on monday... realli cool when i saw the desserts... they look so damn nice... esp the strawberry that's supposed to be dipped in this fountain of chocoloate... drool... the cheesecake was fantastic too haha.. tues wasnt so nice the food coz i guess russian food aint to my taste...
yeah~ lastly, the ppl there are rather nice too... quite fun and helpful... hopefully my rest of the week i can last... dun earn alot but i guess for the time being its enuff... yeah~ wish me luck... i almost dropped the glasses twice... hopefully later tonite i need not carry glasses...

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Friday, December 10, 2004

weehee~ went to hyatt hotel yest to try for the banquet waitressing training... and it turned out that there was no training at all... duh we were just showed arnd... and guess what, they realli called me up today to ask me go next week... mon - fri.. gona work til abt 1100... well... realli hope its not that tiring... pay's onli 5 per hour but better than that stupid flyer distributing woman who thinks i haf nothing better to do but to wait for her call everyday to tell me when i can go distribute her flyers... yest another day of irritating call... she wanted me to distribute today.. and in the end told me no need le... now she told me tml gota distribute... what does she take me as? a nothing better to do stupid girl? .... aye she suk la... gona just dump her her flyers... so smart u distribute urself! aha...
well... feel better after complaining... once again she SUK!!! haha...

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Wednesday, December 08, 2004

hm... did my previous post sound depressing? aiyo... i was merely reflecting on what i did... dint realli mean things in a bad way... i dun dislike what i am doing now... just thought i need to correct it a lil... heh.. anywae i love da jam hamster no matter what~ muakz~ hehe~~ =p

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Tuesday, December 07, 2004

wow... seems like ages since i blogged... anywae nothing much happened expt that the job i tried suk the woman was demanding and makes no sense... aye.. so i decided not to do anymore...
been playing a few games, e.g. maple story and ragnorak... well... not that bad... though i am realli carried away by it at times... =[
so today, finally met up with shixian, sinlay and jo... was supposed to play badminton but lazy me decided to sleep longer and oopz... missed the session... went sakae buffet =[ for lunch and den jo's house for mahjong... and watched da channel u show... how long has it been since i watched tv serials... i realli cant rem... so unlike of me... i used to be such a tv fan... and now i am turned into a computer internet freak... online da whole day either playing games or chatting with johan, shauna, shixian etc... is this good or bad? my life style has been totally changed within a few mths... sleeping in da day and awake at night... eating one meal per day with a few sessions of snacks in da middle of the night...
sigh... what jo said was realli right... my parents must has been suffering... esp during my exams.. i was kinda stressed and i refused to eat... my dad was so upset he was shouting at me and i just shut myself in my room... am i getting some mental disorder? lol... well... i think they are realli worried abt me... not sleeping alot... not eating alot... sigh... i need to rethink what i am doing...
some things are realli hard to understand... just hope i can realli work things out... i hate to give up things i realli want and i will try my best to salvage it... well... but if one day i gota let go... i guess i'll just learn from it...
phew thats a lengthy one... alright meanwhile enjoy da song~ nice~!

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